weddings

for almost 1 and a half months I didn't update my blog ... maybe because I'm tired of all my kadramahans ... kse ala din effect ... hehe

We celebrated 2 weddings for our college friends (both the brides and grooms are our friends). An officemate once asked me how I feel? Well, honestly I don't feel envious or anything. Unlike last year where there are consecutive weddings as well (that I wanted to get married too). This time it felt different ... it feels like I'm not ready to enter married life. It feels like ala lang ... I'm just happy for the newly weds :)

follower

aba! may follower ako sa blog .. hmmm .. dahil ba parinig ako sa last post .. hmmm .. nani nani...

halfway

In 19 hrs, I'm back in the Philippines ... so excited ... yet so tired. I'm here in Hawaii and I'm envious with all the lovers around us. Hope we could go back here together :p

Sex and the City

I watched Sex and the City and these dialogue made me look for the subtitle and write them down.

Miranda: I don't know that I can trust that it won't happen again.

Doctor: Steve, you're very quiet today.

Steve: Miranda, I know I made it hard for you to trust me...But you made it hard for me to trust you.

Miranda: Me?

Steve: The way you treated me and cut me out of your life like that. I mean, yeah, I broke a vow... but what about the other vows? Like promising to love someone for better or for worst. What about that? How do I know she's not gonna punish me for the rest of my life?

Doctor: You don't. And she doesn't know for sure that you won't have another indiscretion. All you can know is that you wanna move forward... and risk that the love you have for each other won't allow that to happen. And that's what we'll discover here.

6 Flags

I enjoy today's trip to 6 Flags... We rode the Superman, Mind Eraser, Batman, Thunder Bolt, Scream, Shipwreak Falls, Cyclone, Gondola, Stampede Bumper Cars, Blizzard River, Thomas the Tank engine

I'm still too tired i can't describe the rides .. basta alang sinabi ang Space Shuttle ng Enchanted ... There's an exact replica of the Space shuttle and it's called Flashback ... it's just a mild thrill ride I guess.. compared to the others that we tried...

Un lang .. I miss my baby .. daming PDA ...

b-day

so far ... saddest bday ever ... ramdam ko layo ng pinas .. :((

HAPPY 26th BDAY to me ...

At least I don't look like 26 ... hiningan ako ng ID nung bumili ko beer e ... hehehe ..

26th

Birthday ko na sa pinas ... haaay..

first time magcelebrate malayo sa love ones ..

Sad bday for me ... :(

MDS not FMS

After all the good feedback that I got from my mentor, I somewhat messed up today. And it's really BAD! Though, it's not my fault still we have to take responsibility on it.

Here's what happen. I am explaining the case to the customer and then at the end he asked another issue. What's the procedure to run a rebuild on the FMS machines. I asked my senior tech and he gave me the answer which I told the customer. Then after a few minutes, the customer called back and the site went down. It is not a FMS machine, it's a MDS machine. !@#$%$#@! Then the manager called, saying that I should have verified that it's really a FMS machine. blah blah blah ... blah blah blah ... okay it's our fault.

I'm just a newbie, I just follow what my mentor told me. And I have a lot of things going on already. He said that I should only take 2 calls before I aux out BUT I already have 4-5 calls before he aux out and realize that we are in trouble.

Haaaay... it puts pressure to my mentor and tomorrow I should be prepared for whatever his mood will be. Just hope that it would be smooth sailing though I doubt it. :( ... oooppss.. be positive... as said in anime Monster "Tomorrow, would be a good day". But literally, I need to work LATER and not TOMORROW. Haaaay... :( anyway, lesson learned and just hope that the issue will be fix before we come in at night.

mada mada

I graduated on a 3weeks mentorship with Gary, Ron, and Ed. It's nice to hear that I'm great, that I'm the best so far ... though I doubt it. Perhaps they just say it to make me feel good. Still a lot to learn and still more weeks of mentorship with the other techs. Mada mada dane =p

4days

Today is supposedly my last day to work for this week. Then I'll have a 4 straight no working days. If I'm in the Philippines, I would gladly accept it. Then just stay at John's place and probably sleep and watch all day. But I'm not home, so I guess I'll just work tomorrow. And then spend 3 days to rest. Can't go shopping .. malls are too far. Don't like to swim, it's too cold. Maybe I could look around and purchase some from my list of pasalubongs. I wonder what I would give to my baby .... hmmmm ...

Babyjan .. I wanted to buy you a lot of stuff .. but it's just that you might get mad and will just tell me to save it ... :(

Pasyal

I've been here for 6 weeks and still wasn't able to tour the place. The supposed to be 6 Flags trip was cancelled due to the storm that's coming but didn't come. My boss will go back to the Philippines and will stay there for 6 weeks. And we are stuck here without any mode of transportation. Haaaay... Un lng naman gusto ko mamasyal. :( I'll be off for 4 days this week and my boss offered me to go to wherever place that I need to visit, friends or relatives to see. But I can't or rather I will not. It would cost me a fortune. So I will just work overtime on Thursday than to spend my whole day doing nothing at the hotel. We still have another 6 weeks and I wanted to tour Boston and New york. Looks like I'll run out of budget. :( Haaaay... Need to do an estimate again. :-(

bUdGet

I just literally sit side by side with my mentor today. Since there are no calls coming in for him I think he's not in the mood to teach as well. So I just sit there and plan my budget for the next months to come. I tallied everything and it all fits. I compute for my pays to see if there are no discrepancies. I came with a perfect budget fits just for me and hope I could implement it say November.

lazy

It's Sunday and I have to go to work ... waaaaa! sobrang kakatamad! :( we should be in 6 Flags today ... or kahit alang ginagawa dito sa room ... still kakatamad pumasok. E kse naman ako lang may pasok. And hindi nga ako pumapasok ng Sunday in my previous job, tps ngayon papasok just for training. :-( kakatamad talga .. haaaay... buti pa sa pinas .. 2 weeks long weekend.

Fire Alarm

I was busy watching anime when I suddenly heard an alarm. My first thought, it was the doorbell alarm but it's too loud for that. I looked at the alarm clearly then saw the word Fire. Then my mind went blank for a moment, is this a drill or what? I'm hoping someone would shout SUNOG!!! But there isn't ... so I can't confirm.

Then I checked if there's any smoke in my room... remove the plug of the laptop, turned off the dishwasher then grab a shawl .. grab my small bag (w/ the cam, cell, wallet) , grab my savings (hehehe .. of course). I'm having second thoughts of grabbing the laptop as well but it's kinda heavy thinking that if there's really a fire I need to run. I completely forgot my passport and completely forgot that it's cold outside and I should have wear a panjama at least.

I calmly went out of the room and saw some guest moving out quietly so I did the same... heheh ... The guy in the other room even went out with just a towel on his hips and the laptop on his hands.

Outside, there's no fire on sight. But there are 3 fire trucks ... Perhaps it's just a small fire but it's really great that the response are fast. Not like in the Philippines where a whole block would be on fire before the firemen come.

After around 25 minutes we all went back to our rooms ... We didn't even get any tsismis, what's the ruckus is all about. Para naman may mapagkwentuhan kami tom.

It is just now that I got nervous, thinking of the what ifs .... Oh well ... We're all safe and that's all that matters :) ... Whew!

Surprise

It's our boss' bday and we planned a surprise for him. Good thing, it was a success though we really didn't plan it well due to lack of budget. Anyways, I'm glad it's really his bday and looks like he really didn't have any clue about it. Hehehe ... And he love the Ice cream cake that we got for him. Un lng .. alang libreng dinner ... Well, ganun talga.

I loved surprises and am happy that he greatly appreciate it. =D

Can't post the pictures here ... haaaay... sad .. :(

HAPPY ___ BIRTHDAY JIM !!!

bAcOn

I cooked bacon for dinner and suddenly felt very sad,
I got teary eyed that I wanted to burst out a cry ..


I really miss my baby ...
I miss cooking for him, eating with him,
I miss holding hands while Im window shopping..
Someone to lean when I get tired ...
Someone that will hug me tight when I'm crying
I miss his touch, hug and kiss ...
I miss you so much babyjan ... :((

waiting

~ hintay ng makaka-chat
~ hintay ng may magtetext
~ hintay ng may tatawag

:-(

~ hintay maantok at makatulog
~ hintay ng uwian
~ hintay ng weekend
~ hintay ng 2 months

:-(

Cinderella

Just like Mulan, it gives me joy after watching it. Now ... I'm trying to download it. Hope I can (thru veoh) so I could watch it from time to time. The plot is so simple yet I can't help fall in love.... Haaaaay....

tired

no matter how tired I am ... I still can't sleep ... :-(

I've tried reviewing but it makes me more awake. I just got nervous. I wonder what should I do to be able to sleep well. I'm dizzy already like my head is spining. Haaaay... and I still need to go to work.

ERROR LANDER

I really panicked when I suddenly got disconnected from net. John, suddenly came to my mind.. but he's so far he can't help me. I verify with my colleagues and they could easily browse.

First thing, that comes to my mind is that I broke the laptop. Should I reformat, reinstall then the list goes on ... in short, I can't use it since I don't have any installer. I also thought that the card could be faulty, but it's detecting the wireless network. I checked Event Viewer but I don't understand the xml files that it's displaying. My only lead is the "error lander" shown in the mozilla. But in the explorer it doesn't have any errors. But it's not loading the page.

I searched for the error message and it's related to the megaupload toolbar. I only downloaded training stuffs from megaupload. But it looks like I got some spywares, malwares .. or whatever .... Haaay.. i dont download porn. But it finds it's way to the pc.

Uninstall Megaupload Toolbar, porn is expensive, sometimes it wont cost money, sometimes it will cost diginity, and that stupid toolbar is the proof. Arent u getting any porn from megaupload? well, good for u, but u should have gotten some since it screwed your internet surfing.

Good thing after trying to delete and uninstalling everything related to megamanager, I finally able to connect. However, I could still see the megamanager sitting there from time to time. Need to download a SuperAntiSpyware .. Hopefully, it's not a spyware itself...

Im currently reviewing and memorizing VOD, while the torrent and video streaming is doing its stuff ... but when I got suddenly disconnected ... it ruined my momentum.

All of my Cinderella real time streams was gone ... Now, Im gonna start again ... but it's okay .. at least it's fixed. :)

143

~143rd post ~

I LOVE YOU
&
I MISS YOU

time check

2:08am ... I'm still wide awake ... I should have brought my notes from the office. My head is killing me and I have nothing else to do.. darn! internet ... my torrent is very slow.... my stomach is growling as I remember I didn't ate much. Too tired to stand up and get something to eat now. I still need to go to work later ...

080808

Aug 8 na pla sa Pinas. It's a lucky day for Chinese, but I'm not Chinese. So it's not lucky for me. Been away from home for a month. Misses my love, my family, and my dog. Had a very tiring day. No appetite for anything (which is good). Every minute every second I've been thinking. Checking my inbox from time to time. Waiting for some sign to pop. Guess, I've been dreaming wide awake, yet still inside a nightmare falling in an endless pit. Experience striking pain in my head, which would eventually make me numb.

The graph is much better I guess. Haaay... Wishful thinking ... But that's the ONLY thing that I could do now ... WISH and ... PRAY ... for continuous Faith, Hope and Charity... and Patience ...

Take a peek at my horoscope & lovescope for Aug 8:


This is a time of great personal change. You become tired of your role in life, and you are very sensitive to habits, customs, and social requirements that hide the "real you". You feel as though you have been drifting along with the tide and following the crowd for too long, and your inner needs and motivations must assert themselves more strongly.

This is a time you could be more distressed than usual over any dissonance in your environment or personal relationships, and you are inclined to avoid serious discussions or real disagreements with others. Also, challenging mental work and concentration is difficult for you now. Take a step back if possible and realize tomorrow will be here soon enough.

Aug 7

Sakto!! Okay ang bar graph ..

Today's Horoscope For Virgo:

It’s a good time to get together with close friends or acquaintances and just socialize. Communication comes easy, and you can get yourself across without having to work at it. By joining in the general company, you enjoy the benefits of all. People are feeling insecure, so avoid encouraging any negativity you encounter.

Today's Lovescope For Virgo:

A crazy time when you may feel under a lot of mental pressure. You may be unable to express some of your insecurity and sense of change into words in a relationship. If at all possible just put it out there that you really need to talk but you'd like to wait a day or two to formulate your thoughts.

General Information About Virgo:

Virgo is an astrological sign associated with the constellation Virgo. Under the tropical zodiac, Virgo is occupied by the Sun from August 23 to September 22, and under the sidereal zodiac, it is currently from September 17 to October 17. The opposite sign to Virgo is Pisces. Virgo is the only zodiacal sign represented by a female.

Mythology:

According to one interpretation, the Virgo constellation depicts Astraea, the virgin daughter of the god Zeus and the goddess Themis. Astraea was known as the goddess of justice, and was identified as this constellation due to the presence of the scales of justice (Libra) nearby, and supposedly ruled the world with her wise ways until mankind became so callous that she returned to the skies, disgusted.

Characteristics:

Virgo is the sixth sign of the Zodiac, a set of astrological signs. It is associated with purity and service. Individuals born under this sign are thought to have a diligent, analytical, self—sufficient, controlled, orderly, and modest character. The Virgo person is practical, industrious, efficient, intelligent, full of sass, thorough, methodical, exacting, precise, detail—oriented, observant, work and service oriented, painstaking, pragmatic, discreet, health and cleanliness conscious, mentally active, and flexible. The negative traits of a Virgo include their insensitivity, constant criticism, perfectionist attitude, pig—headed nature, and their superiority complex.

Virgo is traditionally thought to be ruled by Mercury. However, during the late 19th century and early 20th century it was speculated in certain astrological circles that the planet Vulcan, thought to be located near Mercury, was the true planetary ruler of Virgo. Today, some astrologers believe that the dwarf planets Sedna and Eris are or will be the planetary rulers/co—rulers of Virgo. Many astrologers who study the powerful asteroid Chiron, known as "the wounded healer", believe it has the best claim upon the rulership of Virgo. Currently, the vast majority of astrologers still think of Mercury as the planetary ruler of this sign.

The Indian equivalent of Virgo is Kanya; the Chinese equivalent is the Rooster.

Relationships:

In love, the Virgo person is pretty conventional, with refined manners and well—tempered displays of emotion and affection. It's important for the Virgo to feel needed by their mates. Outside of the bedroom is where the majority of foreplay is going to happen for this sign. Even though the Virgo won't express many words of love, they will show their feelings in the bedroom or other rooms whenever they can.

Some signs find Virgo to be the most difficult to fall in love with due to the fact that they are usually boring folk who often times act like the elderly when they're in fact very young. They do not understand emotion so you cannot expect to be comforted by a Virgo in a relationship. Virgos are most compatible with Capricorn and Taurus.

They look for someone who can appreciate their materialistic nature, and over—critical and fussy minds.

Compatibility:

Best Compatibility: Taurus, Capricorn, Libra, Cancer, Pisces

Possible Compatibility: Leo, Aries, Virgo, Gemini, Scorpio, Aquarius

Opposite Compatibility: Sagittarius

Occupation:

Suitable occupations are where analytical and practical, methodical qualities are needed; such as teaching, psychology, nursing and the health and hygiene sectors, scientist, accountancy, or jobs as secretaries or inspectors. Most Virgos go into the medical field.

Body and Health:

Physically, individuals born under the sign of Virgo tend to have a graceful figure, a roundish head, delicately—shaped lips, large and clear eyes, small, symmetrical, and refined features, a high forehead, long arms and thin eyebrows. They are thought to usually be of slightly above average height.

In medical astrology and in terms of anatomy, Virgo is said to rule the abdominal region, large and small intestines, spleen, solar plexus, lower lobes of the liver, pancreas, portal veins, umbilicus, hands, nails, and carpal bones.

Miscellaneous:

The following are also traditionally associated with Virgo:

• Birthstone: Peridot, Sapphire
• Gemstone: Pink Jasper, Sapphire, Rhodochrosite
• Colours: Navy Blue, Gray
• Metal: Gold
• Zodiac Symbol: Virgo
• From: Aug 23 — Sep 22
• Constellation: Virgo
• Zodiac Element: Earth
• Zodiac Quality: Mutable
• Planet: Mercury

I got a friend

I never walk alone, Christ walks beside me,

He is the dearest Friend I’ve ever known;

With such a Friend to comfort and to guide me,

I never, no, I never walk alone.

—Ackley

too early

i slept in late ... and now i woke up too early .. waaaahh... i know im still sleepy but my mind is not. it's not really a sleepless night because I already slept for a couple of hours it's just that my mind is still working while im asleep. darn! i hate dreams!

Fortune Cookie

"No need to worry! You will always have everything that you need"

Hmmmm ... I dont think so .. :(

d' Emperor

I love this story ... read on ... 

An emperor in the Far East was growing old and knew it was time to choose his successor. Instead of choosing one of his assistants or his children, he decided something different. He called young people in the kingdom together one day. He said, "It is time for me to step down and choose the next emperor. I have decided to choose one of you." 

  The kids were shocked! But the emperor continued. "I am going to give each one of you a seed today. One very special seed. I want you to plant the seed, water it and come back here after one year from today with what you have grown from this one seed. I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next emperor!" 

  One boy named Ling was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly told his mother the story. She helped him get a pot and planting soil, and he planted the seed and watered it carefully. Every day he would water it and watch to see if it had grown. After about three weeks, some of the other youths began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow.

  Ling kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew. 3 weeks, 4 weeks, 5 weeks went by. Still nothing. By now, others were talking about their plants but Ling didn't have a plant, and he felt like a failure. Six months went by, still nothing in Ling's pot. He just knew he had killed his seed. 

  Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing. Ling didn't say anything to his friends, however. He just kept waiting for his seed to grow. 

  A year finally went by and all the youths of the kingdom brought their plants to the emperor for inspection. Ling told his mother that he wasn't going to take an empty pot. But honest about what happened, Ling felt sick to his stomach, but he knew his mother was right. 

He took his empty pot to the palace. When Ling arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other youths. They were beautiful in all shapes and sizes. Ling put his empty pot on the floor and many of the other kinds laughed at him. A few felt sorry for him and just said, "Hey nice try." 

  When the emperor arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted the young people. Ling just tried to hide in the back. "What great plants, trees and flowers you have grown," said the emperor. "Today, one of you will be appointed the next emperor!" All of a sudden, the emperor spotted Ling at the back of the room with his empty pot. He ordered his guards to bring him to the front. Ling was terrified. "The emperor knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me killed!" 

  When Ling got to the front, the Emperor asked his name. "My name is Ling," he replied. All the kids were laughing and making fun of him. The emperor asked everyone to quiet down. He looked at Ling, and then announced to the crowd, "Behold your new emperor! His name is Ling!" Ling couldn't believe it. Ling couldn't even grow his seed. How could he be the new emperor? 

  Then the emperor said, "One year ago today, I gave everyone here a seed. I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today. But I gave you all boiled seeds, which would not grow. All of you, except Ling, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you. Ling was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new emperor!" 

********* 

If you plant honesty, you will reap trust. 

If you plant goodness, you will reap friends. 

If you plant humility, you will reap greatness. 

If you plant perseverance, you will reap victory. 

If you plant consideration, you will reap harmony. 

If you plant hard work, you will reap success.  

If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation. 

If you plant openness, you will reap intimacy. 

If you plant patience, you will reap improvements. 

If you plant faith, you will reap miracles. 

But 

If you plant dishonesty, you will reap distrust. 

If you plant selfishness, you will reap loneliness. 

If you plant pride, you will reap destruction. 

If you plant envy, you will reap trouble. 

If you plant laziness, you will reap stagnation. 

If you plant bitterness, you will reap isolation. 

If you plant greed, you will reap loss. 

If you plant gossip, you will reap enemies. 

If you plant worries, you will reap wrinkles. 

If you plant sin, you will reap guilt. 

********* 

So be careful what you plant now, It will determine what you will reap tomorrow, The seeds you now scatter, Will make life worse or better, your life or the ones who will come after. Yes, someday, you will enjoy the fruits, or you will pay for the choices you plant today. 

Flight 101

John and I left around 630 then arrive 715 at the airport. Then he left after a few minutes. With teary eyed, I went to the entrance. Damn, the lady guard not helping me with my baggage. She could see that I'm having trouble lifting it to the scanner but still she just stood still. So much for Filipino hospitality.

Our checkin was not so smooth sailing, since there's a problem with the itinerary. We will be staying at Hawaii for more than 24 hours. so we were delayed. Then after an hour of waiting, we were given our boarding pass.

Lucky for teddy, since one of us could be upgraded to business class. Jim, did a toss coin and Teddy was picked.

Im on board the plane NOW and Im so dizzy ... waaaah... i could hear the propeller (?) ... i 'm so dizzy.. but I wanted to busy myself. However, the battery is going low. So I can't play any games. I can't find any outlet here. When would the snack arrive? I'm dizzy and I wanted to eat something.

While doing this blog, I'm watching August Rush in Spanish. Hehehe ... but then I figured ... I need to change the channel to change the audio... hehehe .. oooppss... Now, it's in English.

This is my first time and it's far from my expectations. I thought it would be a fun and fast ride but it's not. Or rather I wouldn't feel anything but I could feel the roar of the engine. What I love is the take off ... the speeding of the plane ... but then it kinda felt like it slowed down. Then im dizzy ... haaay...

I guess I just have to try to sleep myself through it. Or maybe watch August Rush again.... or just wait for the stewardess to serve our snack.

Will publish this blog later when I have the chance. Perhaps when we stay at Hawaii. Hopefully, Jim could get as a hotel so I'll have the chance to get online.

I know John wouldn't understand. But I really missed him. Guess, I just wanted to share the experience with him. Perhaps, we could travel together next time.

Logging off @ 11:51PM July 8, 2008 (Philippine time)

new domain name

I created a blog for the purpose of letting someone know of my sentiments. However, I've been very dramatic lately. So I decided to keep everything private.

Change my domain name again... to my-babyjan

so much delay

Here are updated dates which Lubna (HR) clarified with CDS should be on the DS2019 and SEVIS Records:

July 14, 2008 - October 3, 2008 for Leslie Anne Feliciano
July 14, 2008 - October 3, 2008 for Teddy Roxas

July 28, 2008 - October 17, 2008 for Mark Robles
July 28, 2008 - October 17, 2008 for Ryan Dominic Sarmiento

August 11, 2008 - October 31, 2008 for Jony Felipe


The July 14th crew will leave on July 3rd for the US if we have the forms by Wednesday July 2. Otherwise, we will leave July 10th assuming we have the forms by July 9th.

Last day change

Bad trip naman ... who would think na pwede pa pala ma-cancel ang trip? one day before ang alis then suddenly your boss called to inform you that its postponed. Haaaay... olats! kakainis ... panira ng plano ... :-(

been a while

My last call was last year August and today I just took my first call here in Seachange ... im quite nervous .. but .. keri lang :) hehehe ..

Resiliency

~ Hope this helps ~


Emotional resiliency is the ability to recover and to go on in the face of misfortune and adversity. It is about finding joy in life again.


How does one move forward through the pain of the past?

1. Acknowledge the pain or disappointment.
2. Forgive yourself and /or others.
3. Get moving - emotion can be released through physical activity like walking.
4. Nurture yourself. Do something for yourself that makes you feel nurtured.
5. Focus on what you have and what is important to you. What is good in your life? Who or what gives meaning to your life? What can you contribute?
6. Take the time it takes. It will take time to process and come to terms with what happened. Take the time to grieve.
7. Seek help and support from friends, family, your faith leader and/or professional counselors.


You Have a Choice

I think it is so important that you remember that you have a choice. You may not have any control over what happens to you but you can choose how you respond to it. Viktor Frankl , noted psychiatrist and concentration camp survivor, wrote in his book Man's Search for Meaning: "...everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms -- to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way." (1963, p. 104)


Coaching Questions

* Is there an event or issue in your life that is holding you in the past?
* What would be possible for you if you let this issue go?
* What gives you hope? (the love of a partner, your child, your faith, your dream?)


Actions

1. Write down everything about the situation that you need to let go of. Write down all of your emotions and beliefs about the situation. Release the words and the emotion in a physical way by burning the letter in your fireplace or burying it in the backyard.

2. Write down everything that you are grateful for in your life right now. Do not stop until you have a list of 100 things.

3. Focus on what you would like to see happen in your life and take one small action each day to help you move to that place.

4. Practice the seven steps of resiliency.

Jealousy Test

Actually there's no need to take the test since I already know I'm the jealous type but I took it anyway. I'm surprised I didn't get 90% .. hehehe ..


You are 61.9% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.

This percentage means that :
You're a clearly a jealous person.
Most of the time, you over-react.
It would not be surprising if your jealousy became a real problem in your relationships.
Lighten up and work on your self-esteem.

Latest News

Two of us will start our training on June 30. Another two, will follow mid-July. Then the last would be on the first week of August.

Haaay....

Power of Punctuation

An English professor wrote the words : "A woman without her man is nothing"
on the chalkboard and asked his students to punctuate it correctly.

All of the males in the class wrote : "A woman, without her man, is nothing."

All the females in the class wrote : "A woman: without her, man is nothing."

Life's little instructions

1. Never tell a person who is experiencing deep sorrow "I know how you feel" because you don't.

2. Never risk what you can't afford to lose.

3. Once a year, go somewhere you've never been before.

4. Remember that the formula for great love is communication + respect.

5. When declaring your rights, don't forget your responsibilities.

6. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of good luck.

5 Basic Principles

~ Found these while browsing some blogs....

1) Don't let someone become a priority in your life when you are just an option for them.

2) Never cry for any relation in life because for the one whom you cry does not deserve your tears and the one who deserves will never let you cry.

3) Treat everyone with politeness even those who are rude to you, not because they are not nice but because you are nice.

4) Never search your happiness in others which will make you feel alone, rather search it in yourself, you will feel happy even if you are left alone.

5) Happiness always looks small when we hold it in our hands but when we learn to share it, we realize how big and precious it is.

I survived ...

11 hours without any sleep during my night shift ... I'm dying to hit the bed! 20 more minutes to go ...

Night Shift

Haaay... I'm tired. Today is my first time to work on a night shift. Err... rather yesternight. Actually I'm not that sleepy but I wanted to sleep already. I haven't adjusted my sleeping time yet. Hope it wouldn't cause any problem with regard to my health. John's already past asleep at the office, so I'm blogging away my time while waiting for my colleagues from their lunch/midnight break.

After 3/4 weeks of night shift, we're off to Acton, MA. :-(

I'm missing ____ already, but I ain't gonna tell him... :p

Awaken

Awaken
by Ralph S. Marston, Jr.

In your life
A new day is dawning
Awaken and touch the beauty

Wherever you've come from
Whatever you've been
New possibilities beckon
Right here and now
Awaken and make them real

There was a time when you held in your heart
The most magnificent of dreams
A time when life seemed to carry
Endless promises and possibilities

Those dreams are still with you
Awaken and bring them to life

What you long for
Is longing for you
What you dream of
Is what you are meant to create

The doubts you have exist only in your mind
The anxieties that seem so burdensome are of your own making
Now is the moment to awaken,
and allow those doubts to melt away

Awaken, and dive deeply into the beauty of this moment
Allow your spirit to fully experience the richness of it all

Awaken
Allow peace to fill you completely
Let it touch your deepest longings
Let it bring those longings to life
Your most treasured possibilities are real,
If you will simply let them live through you

Awaken to this moment, and life begins anew
Reach inside, and allow
your most treasured
dreams to awaken with you
Into a bright and shining new day

Remind yourself again and again
Of how beautiful life can be
Remind yourself again and again
That you can make it so

Awaken
Step boldly and lovingly forward
Into this day

You've already come
So very far

You're stronger, more experienced
and more determined than ever
To fulfill those longings
That tell you who you are

Now is your moment to create real meaning
Now is your moment to awaken
And to truly and fully live

Reconciliation ???

Tired from driving

Stopover at Starbucks (Shell) SLEX

Drive ulit

First time magihaw ... ayaw magbaga .. wehehe


ayun sunog!


masarap naman


hugas lang ako


magluluto na naman ... yan! medyo marunong na magpabaga .. hehe



night swim


order na lang kami breakfast


sarap slide .. medyo scary lang ...


after magslide ...


Uwi na .. lunch @ Samaral Resto


picture muna while waiting


hmmm .. ano isip baby?


mahangin sa labas ...


pang pa-high blood


baked tahong, chicharon bulaklak, and Samaral Fish


after kumain


... picture ulit muna ...


ebidens! 100kph .. tsk tsk ..


uuwi na ...

So there you go ... out of town with John at Splash Mountain, Laguna ..
pansin ko lang konti pics ko :( ... taba ko kse .. kaya delete .. ehehe..

bati na ba? hmmm .. medyo ... pro okay naman na kami ... ;)

one month

exactly one month, Im off! This time, I think sure na yan ... sad part .. sure na dun nga ako mag bibirthday ... haaaay .... ganun talga ...

Rio Diaz Conjuangco

I was browsing and found this article ... it warms my heart to read testimonies like this. I wonder where could I get the book "Streams in the Desert" ... at this point in my life I really need to go back to God .. start anew ..

Six months ago, my family was preparing for my
funeral, but I stand here before you today by God's
grace because He still has a purpose for my life.

Let me share with you my story..

In April, l99l, I began to host Eat Bulaga!, a
noontime show that brought me fame beyond my wildest
dreams. I earned good money while I made
people laugh. What a blessing!

October of l993, I met Charlie. Single and
good-looking, this guy has a terrific sense of humor,
a man with a big heart. "Kung sa beauty contestant,
beauty and brains." At a certain point in our
relationship, we both knew God brought us to be
together...for life.

In August, l994, we were married. After four wonderful
years of marriage, God blessed us with two children,
Claudia and Jaime. Thirteen years earlier, I was
blessed with a son, Ali, from a previous
relationship.

May of l998, Charlie became Congressman and I became
Vice Mayor of Pontevedra ( Negros Occidental).
November of the same year, during a routine check-up,
they discovered some abnormalities in my stomach area
which, the doctors said, could be solved by a minor
procedure.

A few days later, my supposedly one-hour surgery
turned out to be a six-hour-and- a-half surgery. I was
diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer..

Cancer?

No one had cancer in the family. My life flashed
before me. My world suddenly caved in. The doctors
were quite frank. They told us that I had only a
couple of months to live. Stage 4 cancer is like a
death sentence.

As my doctor was speaking, I didn't understand a word
he said because all I could think of was Charlie, my
children, my family, my in-laws, would whisper, Lord,
help me...help them, Lord!

They're all suffering. I don't know how to comfort
them. The day before my first chemotherapy, I said,
Lord, just tell me you're in control. Tell me that no
one made a mistake and I'll be fine no matter what,
Lord. Somebody gave me a devotional book entitled
Streams in the Desert which I read
at 3 o'clock in the morning. It said, this is my
doing.

Your weakness needs my strength and your safety lies
in letting me fight for you. You did not come to this
place by accident. You are exactly where I meant you
to be. You were so busy that I could not get your
attention and I wanted to teach you some of my
greatest truths. The pain will leave you as soon as
you learn to see me; in all things. These words became
the pillow on which I rested my weary head.

I surrendered to God all my fears, all my burdens and
my family as I began my journey of trials. I focused
on His promises as Jesus said, Surely I am
with you always.

By God's gracious mercy and beyond all medical
explanation, after six months of chemotherapy went on
remission. Eight months later, the cancer was back.
More surgery, more chemo. And then again, God allowed
healing for me. The best lesson I am learning from
this is how God allows us to enjoy life with His
moment by moment of grace. My third bout with cancer
entailed three different chemotherapies infused at the
same time. The Lord allowed me to learn to NEVER GIVE
UP, NEVER GIVE UP...PUT YOUR HOPE IN GOD.

Three times, I was at the threshold of death.
Medicines and state-of-the- art treatments were
notworking anymore. Not all the money in the world nor

the best doctors on earth can make us live if God
doesn't want us to. During those times, God comforted
my heart with these verses: Why are you downcast o my
soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in
God for I will yet praise Him my Savior and my Lord.

But let me tell you about my latest brush with death.
After spending Christmas with my family here in Manila
, I left for San Francisco in January of 2003 for my
check-up. I knew there was something terribly wrong
with my body. I had sleepless nights; I was steadily
losing weight; I couldn't eat
anything.

By the time I had completed all my tests, I was only
96 pounds. My doctor said, the cancer has spread. You
need to be confined in the hospital. Your food passage
is completely blocked by the cancer. I don't know how
much time you have. Not much. Maybe a month. But I
promise you will not feel the pain.I hugged Dr. Fisher
and thanked him. I told him, don't be sad. I
know God is in full control of my life.

I went home that night to make some arrangements and
my daughter was fast asleep. I knelt down by her
bedside and I cried, Mama loves you so much that it
hurts. Lord, you know how much I love my Ali, my
Claudia and my Jaime. You gave them to Charlie and me
and I thank you. I know in my heart that Charlie will
love them and watch over them. Lord, take care of my
husband because I love him very much. But much more
than this, it comforts me to know that I could never
love them as much as you love them. I thank you,
Father God.

Charlie remained by my bedside day and night,
caressing me, talking to me. It pains me to think how
much our husbands or wives suffer the fear of
losing us.How blessed I am to know how much my family
and friends love me.

The Lord allowed me to experience deep, deep, sleep.
I have never ever felt that kind of peace, peace that
surpasses all understanding. Dr. Fisher explained to
Charlie that my nourishment would come from a bag of
liquid attached to me, which has to be administered
on a daily basis for life. I would never be able to
eat
or drink again.

Surgery was ruled out, so was radiation. As a last
recourse, it was suggested that I do the mildest
chemo but if I so much as cough, he would remove it
and just keep me comfortable. I was in awe when I was
told how many people were praying for me. By God's
sovereign mercy, I never coughed.. One month later, my
cancer level went down by half. I am now only a few
points away from being on remission.

And as if this weren't enough, God's incredible bonus
is that I am back to my full d iet. I can eat and
drink
anything now! Once again, the doctors were amazed.
Yes, isn't our God amazing? God spared my life when
Stanford doctors had given up on me.

In my heart, I knew why. God allowed this miracle in
my life to show us how gracious He is and what a
powerful weapon prayer can be. And that God can
perform miracles in our lives, if you let Him. I will
never fully understand God's ways but I do know that
God has a purpose for each of us. When God calls you
to live for Him, He will invite you to be a part of
something much bigger than yourself, something that
requires the very best of you, something that
may outlive you. When God calls us to a powerful
vision, it may transcend safety and it may transcend
common sense because it is all about Jesus Christ.
Without Jesus, we will not make it!

Do we know, do you know, what God wants you to do
withyour life? If you are uncertain of God's will for
your life, surrender all your plans to Jesus because
God's plans for us are perfect.

The cancer in my body, I did not choose. But in God's
sovereignty, He allowed this affliction in my life.
But I ask you, what is the cancer in your life?

Is it the cancer of unforgiveness, jealousy, lust,
anger or bitterness that you are holding on to?
What are the wrong choices you continue to make
because they give you temporary pleasure but can
permanently destroy you -your husband or your wife or
your children or your circle of influence?

If you are going through a time of terrifying
darkness and despair, or are plagued by doubts that
are slowly eroding your hope that things can get
better, I urge you to surrender it all to God;
give Him full control of your life. It is the only
way to live.

Lord, forgive me for all my sins. Jesus, come into my
heart; be my Lord and my Savior. In Jesus' name, I
pray. Amen.

waiver

no comment! wahahaha!

flowers

My officemate sent flowers (online) to his wife at Dubai for their 16th anniversary.
Syempre kung ako papiliin... gusto ko pink! wahahaha! wats new? :p

He ended up sending the white one instead ... pde na!! Sweet!!!

Reminder ...
ayaw ko ng ganito ha ... masyado mahal! hihihi! :p
mmmmwaaahh!